I can't believe that I have 2 WEEKS LEFT! It's like it's so close, yet so far. Her nursery is done, just needs to be vacuumed, oh and I need to wash her socks and hats and little mittens. But aside from that, it's all ready for her. So is her pack and play, it's sitting in our room, just waiting for her. Everything else is in it's place, I scrubbed her bathroom, and ours, top to bottom, and I dusted her room. I'm not done doing all of the scrubbing and cleaning that I'd like to do, but all of this squatting and walking around, and standing might help with labor so I am more than happy to do it. I've been going to the grocery store for a few things at a time lately as well, and standing all day Thanksgiving, cooking and baking, really wore me out but again, let's hope it's getting things going.
Aside from that, there really is nothing new to report. Oh, car seat needs to go in the car too. But really, we're ready! I'm excited but it still seems like its months, not weeks or days away. I've been sleeping a little bit better too, knock on wood. It's still rough when I get up no less than 4 times a night, rolling over is a bit of a process, and just all around restlessness, but it has really got a lot better.
Wow, this is a boring blog I'll bet. I have nothing to talk about except my baby preparations. Ah well, once she's here I'll talk about nothing except for her, I'm sure. I'm not sure who all even reads this, aside from husband...and me, when I feel like reminiscing. :)
Well...hopefully this is my last posting on here until the baby is here! Probably not though, haha....we'll see.. Life is pretty good right now, except for the fact that life likes to kick me when I'm down a little bit, but nothing we can't handle.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Almost full term!
I am so excited to be able to say that at any time, I can have a baby. It still doesn't seem real, but soon enough I'm sure it will.
I'm happy to report that I am no longer suffering from whatever I had, although I still have a really mild lingering cough, and also I got the unemployment situation figured out...just in time for something else to come up. Apparently, I was "randomly selected" to go to some Nevada Job Connect office, have my skills looked at, and I have to fill out some work sheet and also bring a log of the jobs I've applied for. The date for all of this is December 9, which is scary close to my due date, of course meaning I could either be massively pregnant still, in the hospital, or home with a very young newborn; all of which are less than desireable situations for going to this thing. So, I'm at a loss for what to do. They don't know I'm pregnant because it is a confidential medical thing that they don't need to know that, but clearly, there's about a 99% chance I can't show up that day. So what do I do? Pretend I didn't get the letter? Call in the morning and say "I can't show up that day because my baby is due that week", play it by ear..? I really don't know. I was planning on just sleeping on it tonight (which doesn't seem to want to happen since it's 1am and I'm not even that tired) so I guess I can see how I feel about it in the morning. This just really sucks. Why me, can't they just leave me alone in peace?
On a much happier note, my daughter's nursery, dare I say it, is just about done. Everything for the most part is in it's place, and I just need to get some rubbing alcohol and q tips. Oh, and a humidifier. Her nursery is adorable. I want to live in there. I'll take pics once it is completely done, meaning the little teeny things scattered are out of there. I got her a head and neck support thing for her car seat, which I want for myself...it is so soft, and a JJ Cole bundle me. So, she's going to be supported and warm in her car seat. I got those window shades too, a little hamper and a lamp. Thank you babies r us for faithfully sending me coupons, and for having a gigantic clearance.
So basically, as I have 23 days until my baby is due, I'm just trying to stay busy, hence my almost daily trips to various places (gets me out of the house). But, I feel like things just aren't falling into place like I hoped they naturally would before baby comes. I have all of these issues with unemployment that are making it hard for me to just relax and enjoy the final days/weeks of my first pregnancy. My husband tells me to think positively, but it's a little hard. I don't want to lose my benefits. I didn't do anything to deserve this, I've worked hard since I was 17, and not once have I cheated the government or lived off of it! Plus, the Nevada Division of Unemployment needs to learn that if there really were jobs out there, we wouldn't have a 14% unemployment rating., I also feel like I'm missing an essential baby item but I can't quite put my finger on it. I think that's just a thought, I can't possibly be missing anything.
So, if you're reading this (not sure who does or doesn't) then PLEASE pray that everything works out for the best, a safe and healthy delivery, and that the unemployment works out.
I'm happy to report that I am no longer suffering from whatever I had, although I still have a really mild lingering cough, and also I got the unemployment situation figured out...just in time for something else to come up. Apparently, I was "randomly selected" to go to some Nevada Job Connect office, have my skills looked at, and I have to fill out some work sheet and also bring a log of the jobs I've applied for. The date for all of this is December 9, which is scary close to my due date, of course meaning I could either be massively pregnant still, in the hospital, or home with a very young newborn; all of which are less than desireable situations for going to this thing. So, I'm at a loss for what to do. They don't know I'm pregnant because it is a confidential medical thing that they don't need to know that, but clearly, there's about a 99% chance I can't show up that day. So what do I do? Pretend I didn't get the letter? Call in the morning and say "I can't show up that day because my baby is due that week", play it by ear..? I really don't know. I was planning on just sleeping on it tonight (which doesn't seem to want to happen since it's 1am and I'm not even that tired) so I guess I can see how I feel about it in the morning. This just really sucks. Why me, can't they just leave me alone in peace?
On a much happier note, my daughter's nursery, dare I say it, is just about done. Everything for the most part is in it's place, and I just need to get some rubbing alcohol and q tips. Oh, and a humidifier. Her nursery is adorable. I want to live in there. I'll take pics once it is completely done, meaning the little teeny things scattered are out of there. I got her a head and neck support thing for her car seat, which I want for myself...it is so soft, and a JJ Cole bundle me. So, she's going to be supported and warm in her car seat. I got those window shades too, a little hamper and a lamp. Thank you babies r us for faithfully sending me coupons, and for having a gigantic clearance.
So basically, as I have 23 days until my baby is due, I'm just trying to stay busy, hence my almost daily trips to various places (gets me out of the house). But, I feel like things just aren't falling into place like I hoped they naturally would before baby comes. I have all of these issues with unemployment that are making it hard for me to just relax and enjoy the final days/weeks of my first pregnancy. My husband tells me to think positively, but it's a little hard. I don't want to lose my benefits. I didn't do anything to deserve this, I've worked hard since I was 17, and not once have I cheated the government or lived off of it! Plus, the Nevada Division of Unemployment needs to learn that if there really were jobs out there, we wouldn't have a 14% unemployment rating., I also feel like I'm missing an essential baby item but I can't quite put my finger on it. I think that's just a thought, I can't possibly be missing anything.
So, if you're reading this (not sure who does or doesn't) then PLEASE pray that everything works out for the best, a safe and healthy delivery, and that the unemployment works out.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
5 weeks and counting
Well I made it to 35 weeks which is great. There were a few bumps along the way, and a million pounds, but we made it. I went to the doctor on Thursday and she's very healthy, a little over 5 pounds, and very cute. She's head down and ready to go, yay! I'm still nervous of course, but I think it's to be expected.
I hate to say it but I'm actually a little apprehensive about being a mom. What if my baby doesn't like me or can't be soothed by me? What if things get bad with my husband and I? Don't get me wrong, we have a pretty great marriage. Things have been great just the two of us. We giggle while we talk and just lay around watching TV, we tell each other everything, and we generally have a lot of fun together. We have no real issues to speak of. I just hope that the huge adjustment we're going to make is going to ruin that. I feel bad for thinking that way too. :(
Anyhow, I am very sick. I was sick since last Tuesday with what I thought might just be a cold, and every morning I have woken up with a new symnptom, or worse symptoms. It turned into nasal congestion, to a completely clogged nose, the kind where you can't sniff and you feel like blowing your nose is pointless because it fills right back up, a bad sore throat, and a painful cough. On Thursday I got a Z pack, the 5 day pretty powerful yet pregnancy safe antibiotic, and tomorrow is my last pill and I am significantly worse than I was when I started. This scares me. I'm planning on calling my doctor first thing in the morning when I get up. I can handle being sick, even with pneumonia and pleursy (had them before) but my little baby can't. I won't even go into how much this has inhibited my ability to get my house ready for the baby. None of the above list has been accomplished.
Another thing that kind of sucks right now is unemployment. On my original claim, I think I mentioned that child care is a factor in my acceptance of a job or something like that because, well, it is. Apparently the Nevada division of Unemployment thinks a job is going to fall out of thin air for me and that people are going to continue to pay for child care while they don't work. It's unrealistic, but anyhow, they need more information to determine my eligibility. Ugh! It did tell me however to file my weekly claim today, which I went to do, then the lovely internet system told me it had been too long since my previous weekly claim. So, I figure I tried again, and it said I already did. So...who knows. I didn't get any sort of confirmation number or anything. They're supposed to call me Tuesday so I guess we'll see.
So, basically, it feels as if so many things are happening at once. And all RIGHT before we have a baby, literally. I know I can handle it all but it's not too easy. I have to remind myself that someone out there has it worse off than me and it'll pass. Hopefully by the next time I update this, a lot of things mentioned will be resolved. We'll see.
I hate to say it but I'm actually a little apprehensive about being a mom. What if my baby doesn't like me or can't be soothed by me? What if things get bad with my husband and I? Don't get me wrong, we have a pretty great marriage. Things have been great just the two of us. We giggle while we talk and just lay around watching TV, we tell each other everything, and we generally have a lot of fun together. We have no real issues to speak of. I just hope that the huge adjustment we're going to make is going to ruin that. I feel bad for thinking that way too. :(
Anyhow, I am very sick. I was sick since last Tuesday with what I thought might just be a cold, and every morning I have woken up with a new symnptom, or worse symptoms. It turned into nasal congestion, to a completely clogged nose, the kind where you can't sniff and you feel like blowing your nose is pointless because it fills right back up, a bad sore throat, and a painful cough. On Thursday I got a Z pack, the 5 day pretty powerful yet pregnancy safe antibiotic, and tomorrow is my last pill and I am significantly worse than I was when I started. This scares me. I'm planning on calling my doctor first thing in the morning when I get up. I can handle being sick, even with pneumonia and pleursy (had them before) but my little baby can't. I won't even go into how much this has inhibited my ability to get my house ready for the baby. None of the above list has been accomplished.
Another thing that kind of sucks right now is unemployment. On my original claim, I think I mentioned that child care is a factor in my acceptance of a job or something like that because, well, it is. Apparently the Nevada division of Unemployment thinks a job is going to fall out of thin air for me and that people are going to continue to pay for child care while they don't work. It's unrealistic, but anyhow, they need more information to determine my eligibility. Ugh! It did tell me however to file my weekly claim today, which I went to do, then the lovely internet system told me it had been too long since my previous weekly claim. So, I figure I tried again, and it said I already did. So...who knows. I didn't get any sort of confirmation number or anything. They're supposed to call me Tuesday so I guess we'll see.
So, basically, it feels as if so many things are happening at once. And all RIGHT before we have a baby, literally. I know I can handle it all but it's not too easy. I have to remind myself that someone out there has it worse off than me and it'll pass. Hopefully by the next time I update this, a lot of things mentioned will be resolved. We'll see.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Feeling better?
I am starting to feel a little bit better about being unemployed. Of course today is only day 3 of me not having a job (on a weekday) but I'm also sick, and had my 34 week check up to go to. All is well with the baby! As for me, as long as my temp doesn't go up 1 or 2 more degrees (it was at 99.4 or something) then I should be ok.
My due date is in 38 days! Still 5 and a half more weeks but wow, not a lot of days considering there's thanksgiving weekend in there. I still feel like I have so much to do, and I guess I do, but I don't have energy to do any of it, especially while I'm sick. Maybe I'll make a list here to help me?
My due date is in 38 days! Still 5 and a half more weeks but wow, not a lot of days considering there's thanksgiving weekend in there. I still feel like I have so much to do, and I guess I do, but I don't have energy to do any of it, especially while I'm sick. Maybe I'll make a list here to help me?
Clean and rearrange her roomFinish her laundryFinish (and start) OUR laundry- Clean my house top to bottom
Lysol disinfectant spray my house, top to bottom (its flu season)Buy a few more things, like swaddle blankets, diapers, and a my first christmas outfit of courseSet up her pack n playGet sheets for said pack n play, since it's where she'll sleep- Put a gate up for my dogs
- Clean carpets
- Somehow shampoo or clean my dirty couches
- Rearrange our room
- New pillows for us (ours are ruined)
- New sheets for us (again, ours are ruined)
Find a pediatrician- Cook lots of meals to freeze since I won't want to cook
Sunday, November 1, 2009
6 more weeks
Well I made it to 34 weeks. Not that there was ever any real doubt but my doctor wasn't too sure a few months back because of some mild complications. If she were to be born today, which a small part of me wishes she could be since I am getting uncomfortable, she'd be just fine. That's always a huge relief.
In the next 6 weeks, I don't have all that much to do. Nothing that will take 6 weeks anyway. Her clothes need washing, and I slowly need to make stops at babies r us to pick up a few things I still need, and that's really it. What sucks is I have no job now. Yes, I wanted to stay at home with the baby anyway, but I wanted to work a little bit longer before I left. I am not one who can sit around the house all day. I have never really NOT been busy in my life. I've always been in school, or working, and for a long time it was both. I've never just been idle, ever. There are things around the house, like detailed cleanings, but that, again, won't last for 6 weeks.
Which brings me to a scary and unpleasant thought of mine...I may very well hate being a stay at home mom, because of my inability to be at home all day. Yes, I do realize a newborn, or even an older infant keeps one plenty busy but it's a huge adjustment. I think it's all hitting me that my childfree days are numbered, and while I am so excited to meet my little girl, I'm terrified of screwing up. And even right now, feeling like I might not like spending all day with her, I feel like some sort of monster for not wanting to be around her. Over the past 8 months, literally, I have learned SO much and done so much research that I feel like I've been a mom for years. I have poured my energy into learning things, making educated decisions, and planning them out. Now, it's all real. She's coming very soon and am I really ready? Once she's here and it warms up, I can always take her on a walk around my neighborhood so we can both get sunlight and fresh air. I'm just scared of going stir crazy I guess.
I don't know if any of what I just wrote makes sense. I'm tired, and pregnant haha so it shouldn't have to.
In the next 6 weeks, I don't have all that much to do. Nothing that will take 6 weeks anyway. Her clothes need washing, and I slowly need to make stops at babies r us to pick up a few things I still need, and that's really it. What sucks is I have no job now. Yes, I wanted to stay at home with the baby anyway, but I wanted to work a little bit longer before I left. I am not one who can sit around the house all day. I have never really NOT been busy in my life. I've always been in school, or working, and for a long time it was both. I've never just been idle, ever. There are things around the house, like detailed cleanings, but that, again, won't last for 6 weeks.
Which brings me to a scary and unpleasant thought of mine...I may very well hate being a stay at home mom, because of my inability to be at home all day. Yes, I do realize a newborn, or even an older infant keeps one plenty busy but it's a huge adjustment. I think it's all hitting me that my childfree days are numbered, and while I am so excited to meet my little girl, I'm terrified of screwing up. And even right now, feeling like I might not like spending all day with her, I feel like some sort of monster for not wanting to be around her. Over the past 8 months, literally, I have learned SO much and done so much research that I feel like I've been a mom for years. I have poured my energy into learning things, making educated decisions, and planning them out. Now, it's all real. She's coming very soon and am I really ready? Once she's here and it warms up, I can always take her on a walk around my neighborhood so we can both get sunlight and fresh air. I'm just scared of going stir crazy I guess.
I don't know if any of what I just wrote makes sense. I'm tired, and pregnant haha so it shouldn't have to.
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